After my restless night, I told my husband immediately about this procedure. His reaction was that I was trying to find a quick fix. I felt he was not being supportive, but in hindsight, his reaction was valid. I have been trying to lose weight ever since we were married.
I gained 45lbs with my first baby, and never did get rid of it. With each consecutive baby (have had 6!) I gained more. After each diet I tried (herbalife, slimfast,weightwatchers, diet center, herbalmagic, jenny craig, atkins, south beach) I lost some, but gained back more.
I have an eating issue.
I know this.
My husband's reaction was "if you just..." This is a skinny person's phrase. It is not a matter of "just" when you are obese. If this was, do you honestly think I would be fat? NOT! I am not fat by choice! ok... we have dealt with this issue, back to the lapband. I am now 100% positive that this is the TOOL to assist me in eating less and making better choices in my food consumption.
My weight at decision time was 280lbs. I started the pre-op diet on Sunday, Feb 24th and so far as of this morning am 271lbs. I hope that by the operation date, I will be 265lbs or less. My ultimate goal is to be 160lbs in a year. I will likely make myself smaller goals as time progresses and I see how loss goes. My son is getting married in May so this is one of the reasons WE made the decision to do this so quickly. I would like to be down substantially by then, but have some reservations about making his wedding a goal date. It will be 1.5 months from operation date so potentially up to 40lbs can be lost if I am reading other's experiences correctly. This would be awesome, but I am not counting on this much yet.
I am starting to now feel some aprehension, of course this will happen whenever one goes into a surgery. I have had surgeries before. My sister has not so I am sure she will feel it worse than I. She and I are doing this together so I may sometimes mention her in these posts...
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