the Band is my friend

Truly! Last night was pizza night. I have not been hungry so I see this as a Band thing. I had 2 eggs for breakfast, a porkchop sliced over a small caesar salad for lunch and at dinner, I had only one slice of pizza. I felt good... however, later I got into a bad habit that I have... went to the leftover pizza and tried to eat another. Guess what? it got stuck. my band did not like it and made me give it up... oh yah! not pretty, but what a reminder that it WORKS!
So, this morning, I step on the scale and I have dropped more weight! what a bonus. I have been hovering between 248 and 250 for a couple of weeks. this morning the scale told me 246.4 (this was after I drank a cuppa coffee...)
EXCITEMENT here!!! til next time!

A renewed Strength

Today I am feeling a little more excited again. I went for an hour walk last night with my little grandson and while it was a little hard on my legs, I really enjoyed it. I hope to incorporate a little more walking on the days when i dont go to the gym. Today will be a gym day though as I am not working today.

I think also a big factor in my mindset is that I am using this site to assist me in making better food choices. I keep track of my foods and water consumption and throughout the day, I can see where my choices are doing me good or harm.

You get to earn spark points for the different things you do there, which also helps with the "reward" part of "dieting"... which is another thing I want to comment on. There is a great discussion forum there and if you have the time to read, there is a wealth of info including things that you might be thinking about but never "thought" about. Does that make sense? hahaha

anyways... The word "Dieting" we use it in a bad connotation. But in reality, it is the essense of life. Every living being on this earth is on a diet. Your "diet" is what keeps you alive. What a revelation! Now, time to analize what each individual diet consists of. My diet has obviously been wrong or I wouldn't look the way I do. That is why I am on this journey.

More tomorrow... and please leave a comment if you have anything to say about dieting!

ps... i added a photo of my son and I dancing at his wedding last week. I don't see a difference yet, but others have commented.

It's been awhile!

I haven't posted her for a while. bad bad bad... I really need some motivation again. The lapband is working somewhat, it keeps me from "overeating" in one sitting. It however does not help me with what i put into my mouth. This will have to be me and a choice I have to make.
On April 24, my sister and I went back to Tijuana for a fill. I had 3 cc's put into my band and immediately felt the restriction. However, now 2 weeks later, I almost feel no restriction. This is not good. I am not able to get back to TJ and am scared to death of having a "blind fill" which is offered in Calgary. I will also look into some places I have heard about in Washington State. That is within a drivable distance.
I have gone back to Spark People website and am keeping myself busy with tracking my foods and exercises. I am hoping to create the motivation once again that I need to get this weight off once and for all. It certainly isn't "just falling off" like I have heard happen to so many people.

Here is my tracker once again...

How I came to this decision...continued

Back again...

After my restless night, I told my husband immediately about this procedure. His reaction was that I was trying to find a quick fix. I felt he was not being supportive, but in hindsight, his reaction was valid. I have been trying to lose weight ever since we were married.

I gained 45lbs with my first baby, and never did get rid of it. With each consecutive baby (have had 6!) I gained more. After each diet I tried (herbalife, slimfast,weightwatchers, diet center, herbalmagic, jenny craig, atkins, south beach) I lost some, but gained back more.

I have an eating issue.

I know this.

My husband's reaction was "if you just..." This is a skinny person's phrase. It is not a matter of "just" when you are obese. If this was, do you honestly think I would be fat? NOT! I am not fat by choice! ok... we have dealt with this issue, back to the lapband. I am now 100% positive that this is the TOOL to assist me in eating less and making better choices in my food consumption.

My weight at decision time was 280lbs. I started the pre-op diet on Sunday, Feb 24th and so far as of this morning am 271lbs. I hope that by the operation date, I will be 265lbs or less. My ultimate goal is to be 160lbs in a year. I will likely make myself smaller goals as time progresses and I see how loss goes. My son is getting married in May so this is one of the reasons WE made the decision to do this so quickly. I would like to be down substantially by then, but have some reservations about making his wedding a goal date. It will be 1.5 months from operation date so potentially up to 40lbs can be lost if I am reading other's experiences correctly. This would be awesome, but I am not counting on this much yet.

I am starting to now feel some aprehension, of course this will happen whenever one goes into a surgery. I have had surgeries before. My sister has not so I am sure she will feel it worse than I. She and I are doing this together so I may sometimes mention her in these posts...